THE END

This blog has officially done serving its purpose.
It will now die down, along with the memories which was once published in it.
Goodbye.

It's really exhausting.
Being piss here, being piss there.
Being pissed everywhere.
Waaah fuck to the la la la man!

Like i said, i wanna be immune from all this feelings!
NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!

i'm waking from a dream fading.
I want this dreams to be a reality now please.
the more it comes to mind, the more it fades again.
I want it to stay in my head! I don't want this memories to fade loose.
In reality, it is really fading.
Why can't i get it stay in my head! in my dreams!

I'm loosing, in every aspect.
ANGER,ANGER,ANGER!
JEALOUSY, JEALOUSY, JEALOUSY!

Oh cmon now! Stop toying with me already! Just fucking kill me and get me over with!
Argh!

I think i have menses sia !
ahaha! so the mer right? i know xD

My stomach cramp like whatte fuck man!
Damn those Tom Yam's man.
I aint gonna eat those fucking piece of shit soup ever again!
Now my tummy is damn aching!
Like some fat basterd stepping on my damn stomach!

IM SO GONNA KILL YOU FOR THIS MAKCIK! AHHHH!
bt the tom yam is nice uh, hmms.

Wah piang, tml wrkg 12-closing, cashier sommore.
Nahbei sibey man.
Nehmy!

Get work = Money
Money = License!
License = BIKE!

Must be motivated! Just look at the bikes below, my future wife/girlfriend :)

Model: YAMAHA YZF R-125, My next year's Bike - Class 2B

Model: CBR 1000RR, My final bike - Class 2A

Cant wait for my license mannn ! ! Im awed not by girls BUT by the BIKES ! Girls, kiss your chance goodbye!
Baby CBRs HERE I COME! XD

being me.
Is a choice.
Whether i want to be,
Or not to be.

Should i? What do i gain?
What's there to benefit?

Shouldn't i? What's there to lose?
I'm not getting anythg in return, right?

Gahh! Live life to the fullest!
it's up to you/me/them to how they want things to be!

I give uppppp ! !
Should i? Should i not?

Oh just fucking shut up already!
I'm stressed out.

Yay yay! This wk is the last wk of sch ! Next MONDAY is the last day and my last paper!
I have 3 weeks of holiday! woo! What am i to do eh?
Eat, Sleep, Gym, Sleep, Eat xD
Okay set go!
I am going to bun and save up all the money i can for my bike and license!
Yes ahh mother fuckers! Kaygo!

Happiness,
Anger,
Love.
Trust,
Hope,
Sadness,
Jealousy.

Everything lasted for awhile.
It's only at the point when 'they' are felt.
In 2 or 3 days time, they'll be gone.
And that a new 'they' will be felt.

Is it possible for one to be immune to all this eh?
I wonder, if i could.
May i be the one to have to that honor ? or shall i say curse ?
Idk, but somehow, sometime, I just want to.. be that way though.

Feelings make you human, without it you're nothing.
But sometimes, 'one' can act inhumane.
Because he is too much overwhelmed by anger/jealousy/afraid.
Crashing himself to the ground. Injuring others, loved ones.

And yeah you're right, "the more you squeeze on glass, the more it's bound to break"
I'm squeezing it too hard, it's cracking.
If i were to let it go, the glass stays as it is. But with the crack marks on it.
Leaving a stain, un-erasing stain.
Why can't i just squeeze it till it breaks?
So that, i am not ashamed of the cracks that ive caused?
I wonder.

"...and i want you to know, you couldn't have loved me better."
I'm the one whose just not deserving. Please, Leave. Hazwan's already gone